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Its GAY PRIDE MONTH.  and I'm coming out more. Well instead of being a girly biesexual, I think I'm a soft stud lesbian. and I don't think my life as anything really to do with God. I think accepting my mental health issues is first accepting that I am a ALCOHOLIC! and to accept that I'm a alcoholic is to accept that I'm a soft studded lesbian.  my mental health problem is from believing in god and thinking I have to be some female house wife while working my ass off to make that happen and drinking during the two. 

So I have a clothing line idea. first I'm pissed at my dad he wrote on my facebook that he doesn't like to see two girls kissing.  I feel like I'm in college all over again.  I think my parents are the reason I'm gay and the reason I don't want to be out about it.  When I was 6 years old I caught them having sex and I was turned on by it. First I thought it was disgusting, but I seemed to be interested in sex and being the boy or (boi).  When I was about 9 or 10 I found some playboy mag's in the bushes. The were women, of course, and I was very turned on by them. In college I came out as a lesbian and was quickly badly judged for it so I hid be hind being a biesexual so I could still date men.  

I look at it like this. You know what your gender is. You know what your race is. It is possible to know what your sexuality is. It is rare. to not know what your gender and race are, but for some reason sexuality seems to be something people guess at. (I think its acceptance and hiding it. I think because its so easy to fit in as a stright person some people cause there one problems) 

Anyway I have a idea for a clothing line called pridewear. Its mostly sports clothes. Tennis shirts, shoes, basket ball shorts. socks and so on. I'm not just hopeful, but motived. I see something I can do with myself. A small investment for start up is just what I need. I'm so excited for myself.