Ok so I new a space from my mom was needed. When I saw the camera I became aware of it...long story short the human race became a problem. There that being the truth, I can get into the right relationships that I want. I still have sickly attachment and I know that killing will make that real space. So really killing, and making the space is not easy, but maybe a little meditataion and I can do it. Its like people around me don't realize I said stop, and I hate it. they just keep acting like we have something when we do not. I am trying to have a relationship and they do some kind of attachment. I hate it. So tattoos make a nice space of keeping real awarness about self and relationship attachments and from that that I am the type to try MY I mean with out killing and about my pendent I scream it in my own head and want to kill because I know its the only way to get these fuckers off me I want a relationship. the sick thing that is human is to stupid or maybe in truth to greedy to realize for it self no you you fucking stupid greedy looser of a fucking ass hole and bitch self that wont fucking realize it and as you die waist fucking good life and time energy with your greed and fucking sick attachment and stupidity. So I were a knife that even after making it word clear I mean from one group to another it is pretty fucking clear these fucks so greedy and stupid still act like I give a shit.

Next is tattoos. like the dumb shits just have to take lose and so fucking be it. I don't care they would not learn that they are sick with greed and back the fuck of I dont want a realtionship with them that I fucking want one I don't need them to find it for me and I don't even care that the fucking stupid look on their face is about when they were kids and learned the first time anything. killing will make the ultimite your dumb and I win. And I will do that. So for now as I get tattooed and work on relationships that are me and my husband and our kids and then of course a balssiar so that we have eternal mating, I have were a weapon and get tattooed. I've picked Luke. he is Seven and with still having to go threw puberity, with food and the camera and the pendent then the sick fucking attachment from humans he and I will work out our relatiohsip just fine. I think to kill to help us along. Last on thoughts as I work towards own place to stay, there is a girl, and I know a few are doing it, that move around me, one has moved into the place were I am staying. I need to kill, its just that simple. So this bitch is staying around me and I don't think she is going to stay much longer.  I hope she looses her mind trying to figure it out. I just need to kill. that is the space that will keep a space around  me healthy and balanced. So on my way to a tatto shop, because what wants death like a ass hole and I should be doing it is next to me and I don't feel like being next to it.