I am trying to stay sain from the the insain shit of the human race. Ok so my baby brother is like the only person I like, but the human cold that I have, how people just attach and do what ever the fuck they want to including eating and shiting is making me fucking sick. I know it is because of my pendent. even now I have someone sitting next to me like the only thing allowing him to think is bugging the fuck out of me. how to make they not connect is the hardest. so one like and she will die, kiki, I do not know how to detach and still make things happen for me. Everything is almost on a cosmic scale. I want to kill. I have attachment of human and its like having the flu they just grow and eat and shit and talk to each other and live they fucking live as a god damn sickness on me. then to try and have a relationship like that is something I can figure out when kiki is someone I know will die, but I can't with people like her who I don't care and help death in fact dear death remember to take kiki. now that something of done, the fucking bitch I call mom who needs to fucking leave me alone and again I do not know how to make detach I know that this must do something. It is at least awareness.  Her and my pendent the world of people is a fucking mess. Mom Sucks.  I don't know how to just on or off the ideas of relationship. Fucking jerk people and yes men at the pendent are just stupid shits who just fucking suck. Man sucks. Now trying to heal from this sick fuck thinking anything towards me, I wonder about my pendent. I really think to kill, because I feel it is apart of how to heal my life and stop any attention towards me. I my life is hurt. that is hard to fix. as they fucking walk around with pleasent looks because I wont give up on I can have a relationship. So how do I put a relationship together when the only things I see is greed and even in parents the childern are knowing fucking ass hole person who does it wrong my life needs to be ok. I'm at tattoos to help maybe a crystal ball, but to help with I live forever, don't mess with my life, I want a relationship and yes a forever one with babies forever going on and whats mine stuff is my stuff, I really think to kill. really. Something of a tattoo and get on with a real kill. How do I make a space from everyone and still have a relationship?