ok slow down, I'm not talking about street drugs.  I'm talking about medications.  Ugh I ate to much at dinner. God I am so far away from were I want to be.  Anyway. I'm meeting some really smart men. They read. And that makes feel good. Maybe somebody will read my blogs. Hey if your reading this now check out the Music and don't forget to donate. ; )

Anyway another day down in this treatment program. I feel good today because I took a med that I don't normally take. Its a pain killer and boy did I feel it when I took it. I'm thinking about taking it to night. (Its as needed).  I met a interesting man who I want to date but I feel like I'm more in need of his professional side. Like he's a director of some thing that is addictions and PTSD.  I need him in a way I'm not sure dating is fit for.  He thinks I'm smart because I wrote my book. Maybe I am. I've never thought of myself as smart. so maybe I am. I did get a book out there.  So not much to cover today. Except I feel really relaxed.  I've been giving myself massages all day.  I need to get more energy.  apple cider vinegar, and hydroxiecut. I'm going to add those to my meds. (drugs) because I don't feel energetic enough, or how do I say, my system needs to move cleaner and more regular.

With this cocktail of meds and lets just call them what they are (pills) I might be up doing meditation and yoga. finally taking my life from, well really an unknown materalisitic mess (sp) to a Spiritually, knowledgeable  lifestyle. 

I guess right now I'm (well I'm blogging) but I've been doing Music Therapy with a visual thought process. I'm looking at a giant barbie.  It's my muse. Ok I feel relaxed buy my energy is still to low. at least I've been able to fantasize. And I think I'm going to do that now. 

peace out

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