I'm up. I don't know how long this one will last but I'm up and working out. Because exercise can cause mania I'm selling my treadmill. I might sell it on ebay or to the girl that I live with.  I've been studying travel agent and heres what happened.

Last night I had a dream I became a travel agent. I traveled a bit enjoying being single and I met someone. We got married and had a little girl. I already call her Hunter. We bought a home and she grew up, then bought my grandmas old house.  My cousin was going to die and she wanted to do it in my grandmas old house so I let her live there and her two kid took care of her. Then I started to die so I moved from my grandmas house where I was looking after my cousin back to my house with my husband and my daughter came to take care of me. Then I got a list of the four most important things to remember in my life

1. everything die's 

2. Immortality of the soul can be reach ... Read more »

They say the good die young.  The women on my mom's side of the family and one auntie on my fathers side have been passing way at a early age. I still don't have a lot of followers so I'm going to go a head and blog my feelings. I think if I don't stop drinking I might die young. I think my mother is a good women. Ok if you read my blogs you know how I feel about my mom.  Its a trigger when I call her mother. damn pulled the trigger again.

Ok. lets see. I'm 42 years old and I don't have a job.  I've been to college and the military and because of my drinking I've been un able to hold any ... well really anything. not a relationship a job, a home, all of my things. I've lost it all even my freedom to drinking.  But nothing bothers me more then hearing my mom talk.  She sounds so upset. I mean pissed.  And Pissed at ever thing and everybody.  I'm sure she hates me and just wont say it. Then I think of m ... Read more »