So I've made up my mind to drink. Even through its bad for me. there I reached out. again I'm not tired because I slept all day.  This place is two easy.  boring but two easy.  I just sit around and smoke all day The cold air feels so good in this hot room. 

This is what I am listening to with cold air and hot room mix. I feel enlightened. I don't want a man or a woman for that matter. I want another dog. and some more cats. maybe a bird. and some plants. I put some oil in my hair and its like aromatherapy. I tell myself that if I drink I will loose myself.  Its maybe true. Oh how do I live. How do I let go of the pain and just move on so I can be alive.  Beat my parents maybe or the best of them perhaps to live. just to live. my life. Where are you Daniel in Denial, or the unconscious mind. are you lost in another situation like Isis just gone from yourself and trying to make it. the you should find Isis. I'm sorry. there is someone more important that you must find you must reconnect with. Your self!